I am sitting here wondering!!
I don't know what to write, but i wanted to write something. I have this big story in my mind on which I'm still not prepared to write on.(Fact- I'm really scared that i can't do justice for that story with my writing) keeping that aside.,
Sitting in this drab dull weather, which is by the way cloudy since three days...Having diwali celebrated from all over, but not from within!! sitting around....wondering!!
I read this beautiful(to me) yet! may be plain blog post about "Real Women", i am fascinated by the author's thought on accepting life and oneself. I think this is what i needed now, to cheer up.. knowing on how dreadful i was thinking quite a while ago.
For someone who works in IT, if ten days long Diwali vacation at hometown including ones own birthday doesn't cheer the mood! then there is nothing in this world that can make them happy.
It is Diwali around, the festival of light and damn sound., i do not burn crackers, in fact at home we don't even celebrate any festival ever since my dad passed. We do all the stuff which needs to be done for the sake of doing. Its quite real that festival is nothing but the time of happiness!! and we have decided when ever all three (me, mom and bro) feels happy that's our festival :)
It won't happen too often you see! but that's there when ever its funn..we enjoy.
So., Its my birthday tomorrow. If you are thinking...no.. no...that's not dreadful, im not talking about the birthday..birthday's are funn...parties...gifts...its cool...in fact its great....!!
but that's not it! what bother's is the age that comes along with it.
I am twenty four and i'm not sure what to do with this! dreadful part is not knowing what i want
and along with that turning 24 is scary.
I don't have anything planned for myself! which leaves to looks forward to get married..(god save it)
i haven't been able to complete one stupid certification exam for myself. i am still finding it hard to catch the time which flies by, day to day. Not to mention how i am not able to please my mom with house chores :p
Well to complain, it goes looong.,and never ends.
But in all these time, with everything i complained...i think i had some good moments which i love, some good times on which i laugh all over like a crazy every time i remember those :) It really takes so much to be what i am today. And there is really so much to look forward too!
Seems all i need is a big change :D a good change.
So twenty four, baby here i come :D
P.S - i got a little oil burn on my hand today while cooking, that counts for something to be grown up! doesn't it :D;)
I don't know what to write, but i wanted to write something. I have this big story in my mind on which I'm still not prepared to write on.(Fact- I'm really scared that i can't do justice for that story with my writing) keeping that aside.,
Sitting in this drab dull weather, which is by the way cloudy since three days...Having diwali celebrated from all over, but not from within!! sitting around....wondering!!
I read this beautiful(to me) yet! may be plain blog post about "Real Women", i am fascinated by the author's thought on accepting life and oneself. I think this is what i needed now, to cheer up.. knowing on how dreadful i was thinking quite a while ago.
For someone who works in IT, if ten days long Diwali vacation at hometown including ones own birthday doesn't cheer the mood! then there is nothing in this world that can make them happy.
It is Diwali around, the festival of light and damn sound., i do not burn crackers, in fact at home we don't even celebrate any festival ever since my dad passed. We do all the stuff which needs to be done for the sake of doing. Its quite real that festival is nothing but the time of happiness!! and we have decided when ever all three (me, mom and bro) feels happy that's our festival :)
It won't happen too often you see! but that's there when ever its funn..we enjoy.
So., Its my birthday tomorrow. If you are thinking...no.. no...that's not dreadful, im not talking about the birthday..birthday's are funn...parties...gifts...its cool...in fact its great....!!
but that's not it! what bother's is the age that comes along with it.
I am twenty four and i'm not sure what to do with this! dreadful part is not knowing what i want
and along with that turning 24 is scary.
I don't have anything planned for myself! which leaves to looks forward to get married..(god save it)
i haven't been able to complete one stupid certification exam for myself. i am still finding it hard to catch the time which flies by, day to day. Not to mention how i am not able to please my mom with house chores :p
Well to complain, it goes looong.,and never ends.
But in all these time, with everything i complained...i think i had some good moments which i love, some good times on which i laugh all over like a crazy every time i remember those :) It really takes so much to be what i am today. And there is really so much to look forward too!
Seems all i need is a big change :D a good change.
So twenty four, baby here i come :D
P.S - i got a little oil burn on my hand today while cooking, that counts for something to be grown up! doesn't it :D;)
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