To seek, you shall find!

I had written this around two years back, it was still in my draft. I am not sure why i did not publish this. Now that when i read this again, i figured it is pretty decent content which shouldn't go without sharing. So here it is, Shrumaye's Gyaan

In the middle of figuring out the purpose, some things are to understand the difference between,

Real and Illusion
Truth and lie
Love and hate
Gratitude and thanklessness
Honesty and deceit

Its fancy to say - "I wanna live my life without regrets!"
But regrets are part of it...

It’s fancy to say - "I promise..."
But breaking promises are part of it...

Its fancy to say - "love u..."
But responsibility is part of it...

Its fancy to say - "I hate everything..."
But hatefulness is part of it...

Its fancy to say - "it feels so shallow..."
But that is to make you learn to appreciate the beauty of fulfillment...

If one won't respect oneself! Why would some stranger would respect?

If one won't love oneself! Why would anyone else should?

If one won't care for oneself! Why should anyone else care?

'You' are the best companion you can ever get! Do not loose yourself.
Everything is part of IT...
Things change, good things happen so does the bad things!
Life hits you hard, on the face...right when you are to get back up!
It kicks you on your stomach, just when it’s hard to breath with the wind knocked out is the only way to remind you how much you like the taste of air...So, you will find yourself, After all blue star shines brighter.

Things which happened cannot be changed! But future is in you..to light it up or to be ashes with it, is up to you.

Loosing oneself in guilt is easy. Guilt is like a drug, it slumbers around the weak and wouldn't let go.

So is remorselessness.

It’s okay to be "guilty", but guilt is just part of it..
There is so much more to life. Find yourself.

To all.
To all who are lost! So am I..
To all who are to fight and find oneself..So do I..
Kudos.

To Speak Up

It is common when a girl walks by those pervert boys in the corner whistle, call names and act all kind of perverty! But what is rarely seen(As far as i am concerned) is a middle aged or old people being perverts.

The other day i had been to Reliance fresh with my sister-in-law with those two cute boys she have:) we shopped for all needed and unwanted stuffs and while at the billing counter it happened that there was sudden yelling and scoldings from this checkout lady near the exit. By the time we concentrated on what was happening this elderly man took his package and bill and left in haste with all shame in his face.
Apparently this is what happened, This guy has gone for check out and lady politely asked for the bill to compare the items taken. This is kind of mandate in every check outs,
Lady : "Sir, Please give the bill to verify"
Elderly man : "What bill?"
Lady : "The purchased item bill to verify"
Elderly man : "Aden Love aa kodoke, baa manege kodtini" ( Translation - Is that love/sex to give! come to my house i will give you)

Tats it, she broke the hell loose for that as a response and she started scolding all unholy way and she cursed him for the behavior and almost threatened to have him ripped!! Instantly he left from the place did not utter a word she literally had him petrified :D
She was soo furious and angry and after hearing what happened, even we were red with anger.

We returned home after that and not that i discussed this with my sister-in-law or with anyone, but this got me in to questioning myself.
So there is no age restrictions for being a pervert and i am sure that man have his wife at home or even a daughter of my age! yet here he is in this public place speaking rubbish and being A.Ho.

I have been in those situation myself couple of times being the victim of the act and i have always saved myself from the embarrassment of it by not speaking up, rather i have cried inside. Its one thing with those hooligan,rowdies and porkies out there and to fight them and its another to live in midst of these kind of deranged sociopath's. Especially during traveling in trains, buses and even in side walks. There is no place safe from these people and their wicked minds.
But that day i decided, to hell with those people and they are ones to be ashamed about it. As i saw that man was the one to walk out in shame and the girl did the right thing by speaking up for herself. And no matter what i will never once bear these kind of illicit act by those perverts out there and i will always speak up for myself :)

Good days and Bad days

Most of my days would be plain and normal. Nothing special, same routine wake up,eat, work and sleep. 

It Often happens that i will have my worst days, god it will be soo awful Which includes lot of crying and stuff, remembering dad and yelling to pillow which goes like "why!! god why?" And it includes lot of listening to 'O Fortuna' and with flowing thoughts of so damn true. 
So that's about it, no bragging there.

Well, i have had my share of good days and some of my best days are with friends and family and most i have enjoyed is when i am alone. I love solitude :D
And one of it includes to be in my pg for a three days weekend having all roommates away to their native, you can compare that to a classic netflix and wine. But for me it includes lot of book reading and Romedy now and hell lot of sleep..i love that time for myself.

So one of my best day goes like this, It was Raksha Bandhan and Thursday i believe, i had got this beautiful black coffee mug as a gift for rakhi from bro at ofc :D where inscription appears when we pour something hot to it, i was very happy :D It was a fun day to say, we had so much fun and so less work.

It happened that my friend wanted a rakhi and i decided to buy it for her when i go for lunch. Later in afternoon i went to this shop and there were two guys in there North Indians i can say, i was browsing through these rakhi's in parallel one more lady came and bought few stuff and she left.

After a while i started chit chatting with them in my broken hindi and asked them how many Rakhi had they got for festival (from what i know it is very big festival in north) From what they responded i could say they were not very happy, they were like "No rakhi this time, all are at home town.. couldn't go home" (my hindi is bad, i just translated what they spoke in hindi..its mainly my words that i have put here) i listened and then i continued to buy what i came for. And i wanted to buy something more to make it over hundred so that i could use my card to pay instead of cash. And it just flashed, i had epiphany, I had to do it, it felt soo right and exciting at that moment, i turned and took two rakhi's which i could set my hands on first...I looked at them and said i wanted to tie Rakhi and wished "Happy Raksha Bhandhan":D

They were hesitant but looked very happy, yet they were refusing stating "it's okay" and all.. But being stubborn as i am, i stood there struggling to remove the rakhi out of pack then one of them offered me to open the pack:) i tied him first and wished him well and tied rakhi to other one who was near cash register. It all happened soo fast and was exciting and it felt good. 
so by the time i was finished with my little adventure of that day my gifts and stuffs were packed i thought i had my best moment of the day. Even on insisting soo much they refused to take any money on the Rakhi's i tied them :) later i took my lot and left for home.

So i went home had lunch and took this pack just to make sure what i had and opened that brown bag, there was a hundred rupee note in there along wwith rakhi's sjop guy had put it inside the cover as a gift for me :) thinking i would refuse it if given to hand. Tat instance i overwhelmed.. it was not the money that mattered but the gesture of good will.. And that became the best moment of the day :D i felt like returning it but again they wouldn't have taken it back. 
So, Even now you can still find some good out there:)

Animal Abuse

It's pathetic on what happens for the stray wild animals which happens to roam around in human occupied places in search of food. It happens so because of the habitual destruction of animals when man tend to occupy and build layouts and mills near forest areas.
Recently a sloth bear was attacked by people from village near Chitradurga and it was almost beaten to death by stones and canes. To watch the scene in news it was heart breaking.
It is only fair that an animal gets to behave like an animal but is it acceptable for people to behave like an animal, just because the bear injured few people? no wonder it finds man a threat and tend to attack.
doesn't it leave us with a question on the difference between having humanity and being wild animals!

On the same news about a boy who was killed in road accident, they blur the image of his corpse because it is unbearable to viewers and it is very sensitive and violent for others. But killing this bear was freely distributed and shown in TV, which was inhumane and strictly unacceptable.
Even after capturing the bear by forest officials people kept harming it with stones and stuff. It may be an animal but the violent actions were not even avoided then, it was laid there, helpless and beaten.

This sometimes makes me wonder, have people have gone soo cruel and have come to a point to enjoy violence out in open!! be it animal or others who are ill treated.

The same people who tend to beat down a wandering wild animal are blind to everyday crimes and violence. You don't find people gathering together united and charging the local thugs or goons! Also a rapist or a child abuser are not stripped out of their skin alive and hanged in local streets for public display as a punishment for their crimes. These criminals and monsters are hidden and protected by flawed law and also by the same people who are too scared to fight against them.
Irony is that these people get the courage on to show violence on this poor bear which happened to wander around a place which was once their habitat, and is grabbed by these men in the name of civilization.

Being human if man can't show compassion which should be the basic human nature then animals are hardly being themselves, which is again better than a man.